Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Life Dreams

In a mere 6ish weeks-we will have lived in our house for almost 5 years. Which outside of my childhood home is the longest I have lived anywhere...
by Milli

I write these words in the middle of the renovation that will "end" all of our renovations. Anything beyond this will be adding on to our house and that would be for bedrooms and a garage.  After this it will be touch ups or cosmetic changes. I do not foresee that part of our personalities going away. We are forever changing our ideas and outlook on home. In order to make it work we have adopted a "small living" mentality. Where we happily coexist in 900 odd square feet.

I talk about this because home ownership used to be on most American's dream list. We have made it!  Our house is a financial win for us and I appreciate that in my life-and it will continue to be even if we are not living here.  But I still know that  I have other dreams. Other things beyond these four walls that make me tick.

I recently was reading the life list concept. I feel that Luis and I are in the middle of the building our life list outside of this our physical home. We are shaping our spiritual home. We have been asking God to support us financially in sharing our story in how Christ has saved us with others (aka ministry of some type, but I not a fan of that word).  Now how to do that beyond-is a different story.

I am willing to wait five years to see the real layout of this come together, just as our house has taken about the same to realize the best path for it. I realize that God's plans and timeline are different than mine. I do know that his love and passion for me (and for you) are so awsome.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

On the Needles

*All of these links are embeded to Raverly-which you need a account to view FYI

1. Goodale
  Starting this cardigan for meee self!

2. Monster for Henry
3. Yoga Socks-for Emarie and me
4. Mittens for Christmas (Mark)
5. Audrey Sweater
6. Vest for Luca

*There is so much more I want to knit-I have a hard time focusing on more than one project at a time...deadline for most of this is Thanksgiving!!!

Monday, October 1, 2012

Heavy Heart

I know I don't post often on this blog-but like my real life journal it feels good to write sometimes about things that are to hard to express otherwise.

Today I learned that a classmate had died-in an accident. He has a wife and 2 young children. He had a life-we did not talk anymore, which is fine by me. But what is jarring to me is that someone who that I have know from the age of 8 is dead.

I often approach death with a scientific hat-the hospice social worker in me sees the fragile beauty in it. But as a person life is to be celebrated and lived. But for some reason this seems unfair and senseless. Maybe it is because life is starting to feel busy-but I am sad. Sad for life that is gone and sad for a life that could have been. I feel that my life is not yet realized, that Luis and I are just starting to live out God's real plan for us. A plan to share his word with others and to care for the poor.  So today-I am grateful and sad. I pray that my classmate felt God's love in the last moments of his life and that his children are protected with God's love and grace.