Sooooo yesterday sucked!
I did not sleep well so it still kinda feels like the same day.
Here are the good things:
1. I prayed on Monday for god to open my heart to move forward and not feel stuck.
Good job god, you unstuck me. I will give you the glory! I applied for 4 jobs today, and feel good about each and everyone.
2. I realize that I need to be me to be happy. By being me it means, putting my family first. They are the most important things to me in my life!!! I am not a good person to them if I am just putting forth the "effort"
3. We are going to be ok. Things will work out, they always do!
4. I have an amazing support system. I really can not thank my mom and few others out there enough on the support I had to made it though yesterday. I made it and I already don't feel bad about the letting go of my job and what I did or did not do. I have no control over perceptions about me.
Things are looking up. We will be ok. I will be ok.
p.s. I will post pictures from camping weekend soon!