Shots from the island

Between tears at the Target pharmacy and finishing books, this little bit of sick sunshine found me. However it still refuses to smile for the camera. Happy Weekend!

Haircut!

Matias received his first official haircut on Sun. He watch Sesame Street and I cut.

The results we not to bad, just really short bangs :)

I have been really busy I started my first week back at Dakota Woodlands, working as the receptionist. So far so good! I am really happy to have something to occupy my time and keep me busy. When the holiday season starts I will be coordinating adopt-a-family and other Holiday time donations. Which was so much fun last year, so I am very happy to be part of that again.

I am working on applying to social work school. I have to track down academic references and write out my statements, It is quite a bit of work! But I am overjoyed at being able to pursue my dreams. I just hope I get in to school!!! Someone will take me. (I hope)

The other thing that I have noticed is that SAD is back (Season affective disorder) So get out and enjoy outside and the sun if it rears its ugly head!!!

What is so interesting about these past 2 weeks is how by losing my job, I have got my butt into gear. I thought after graduation that I should try to do something that was relevant to the "internships" that I had. In reality that path was not really what I wanted to do or really what my gifts are. I don't know why I did not realize that before. Well I guess that is what getting older and wiser is all about. I really wish sometimes I could go back in time and give my self a kick in the ass.....

CATS

Sorry for the depressing post this week. I am feeling better now and made an appt. So I no longer have to use the internet for thearpy. Any how, we hook up our desktop back up and I was looking though pictures and found some cute ones. This blog has been lacking in the picture dept lately and I wanted to just share the cuteness that is my son. I think that I have a little baby fever so that might explain my fixation on babies :) These little photos make me so happy!

Sprinkler

Today was a lazy day. I did not get much accomplished. But! Matias found out that playing in the sprinkler is fun!

HE will be 19 months old tomorrow and our days are filled with new words and wonder as he explores the world! What I am getting the biggest kick out of is how sweet he is to his teddy bear and stuff monkey. He really take cares of them. So sweet!

Sleeping Babies

Have you watched the advertisment about Christmas time, where all the sleeping babies rest peacefully. (It is for pampers I think?) There is nothing like holding a sleeping baby in your arms. At age 17.5 months holding the giant almost toddler sleeping is a rare occurrence. Tonight Matias fell asleep really early and I held him, just like when he was a day old. I was so happy just holding him. I have left alot of a pre-baby Lane behind, and I alot of it to a sleeping baby.



I was always sarcastic during my pregnancy, I made jokes about how I would not change. How my life would be the same. I did that because I was so scared of the significance of my growing belly. But somehow...one day. I found a peace that is unmatched by anything that I have ever felt before.



As I held Matias tonight, less than an arm reach away sat Luis's camera, I thought I should just take a quick picture. So I grab it. Held down the button, and Mr. Sassy Pant shot up his hand and opened his eyes......






See his eye. Closed. Little Stinker.... :) He is a prankster for sure.

*Also Matias said backpack today like 15 times.....odd. But very cool when a real word comes out of the jabber....
Tonight I am organizing our belongings yet to be unpacked.....FUN!

Sassy pants easter party!

Hi all we back! It was great to get away from the comptuer and tv! I was happy to have some time with my parents and eat some yummy food. See some friends and go to church and say all of my favorite easter sentances. (HE HAS RISEN INDEED) We have no pictures of this but Matias got some rubber boots when we put them on him, he wore them all morning. When they fell off he wanted me to put them back on... So cute!

Here are some lovely photos from easter at my parents house. As Matias grows his sassy pants personality appears more and more. I am ok with this trait. However, it never allows for us to get a decent picture of him anymore.

I am still working on getting the viedo of him posted, hopefully when both computers are operating again I will be able to do so! Until then enjoy Mr. Sassy Pants

Time

My friend Ellen says when you have a baby it is the fast forward button on your life. I could not agree more. Matias is now officially 8mo old. From the time that I had him until this moment right now is literally a blink of the eye. I think about when I first had him, how I was nervous and let others take the lead in his care taking, now I have confidence and take charge!

I never thought my life would end up here. Many people who know me know that I never wanted to have kids. Suddenly though that seems like the dumbest thought that I could have ever had. Until you are a parent you will never quite understand the love you have for a child and or one other person. So cliche

My second date with Luis we were talking about love, and he said to me. I think love is the same emotion just expressed in different ways. Parenting in my mind is the most outward expression of love that a person can show. As we move closer to the stages of walking, talking, playing, discipline, it is scary .....but exiting.

Then (1 hour old)



Now (Fake Camera Smile and all :))